SINGAPORE 2011.

GOOD OLD TIMES.

This year everything is like moving up so fast I can barely catch it all. Day after day flashing in my mind like it's melt into one. Maybe it's true that time is not linear, we're never going anywhere, always be here and now, no past and present and future. But too bad we think it that way. That's why some of us are so miserable that we can't let go the past.
"Die each moment, so we can be new each moment." an Osho's quotes that I always remember. Beautiful meaning. And I'm trying, always.
But sometimes, good memories lingers on. It's hard to let them go completely because after all everytime I remember them, my heart felts so warm, automatic smile on my face.
But the world needs balance, yin and yang, sad and happy, good and bad. One can't exist without the other.

Here I am, in the confusion of life and trying to live every minute of it to understand what's Universe plans for me. And I believe, life is unfolding perfectly. Whatever it is I'm feeling, that's the feeling I should have. It is what it is.

As much as I miss the good old times, I'm just gonna make so much more of it. Something to be remember about for all eternity.

RE-HELLO.

Wow, I totally forgot about this blog. Turns out it's almost a year I didn't update this blog. Damn I'm such a true procrastinator. Everytime I said I will do something, I will start something and then another thing distract me, this is what happens. Sometimes I hate that it's so hard for me to focus to just one thing only and be best of it. My mind always wanders everywhere. So, hello blog we meet again in the same situation for thousand times. Let's just hope I can be better right now.
One year. So much changes. New people. New point of view. New experience. New goals. This is really remind me that everything is temporary. Might as well enjoy while it last.

CURRENTLY.

I promised to myself to write more often, but turns out I'm just so uninspired lately. So much going on. I don't know growing up is this hard. Pressure from everyone, problem that stacks up, hopes and dreams that still on my mind. I thought I was going insane.
So, I'm currently reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, trying to find my inner self, peace of mind, and enlightenment. Such a great book, even though I'm not finished it yet.
I guess I got nothing to say no more. I just hope everything's gonna be okay and I'll feel inspired again.

FERNWEH.

Fernweh is a German word, meaning : A strong longing to be away, to go somewhere.

One word that completely sums up my life right now, I want to go from here. From my hometown. Exploring places that I've never been, meeting new people, experiencing new things and to see with my naked eye how amazing the world is.

I've a dream that I'll move from here as soon as I graduated from uni. Maybe find a job first, saving up some money and then, go whenever I want to go.

The top of my list, it's always been:

PARIS, FRANCE

Who don't love Paris? Who don't want to come here? Or maybe live here? I do. So much.

I love everything about French culture. The languange sounds super sexy! (I learned French when I was in highschool, not really fluent, that's why I want to take courses again) And the food is amazingly tastes good. And not to mention, the stylish city of the world and romantic too, but I don't mind the last one. Ha. For me who has a big passion for fashion, I just think this is gonna be the right place for me.

The second of my list, is:

NEW YORK, USA

The city that never sleep! The big apple! The everything-looks-fits-here for me. Hmmm, New York. What can I say? Everyone who have been there said it was a great city. It has impact on everything, finance, media, culture, art, fashion, education, and entertainment. I just everything's gonna be perfect for me here. The food, street art and fashion, the scenes, music, everything. I set my hopes and dreams high for this city. I will, and I must live there someday!

And for the rest of the list.. it changes a lot actually. I've been thinking London, maybe around Europe or Australia. And I think, why not I just travel the world so I can taste the world. It would be amazing. I set my mind to, "I WILL" and "I MUST" living my dream.

"If you travel, travel with the people you love." 

Let's go, hey lover! 

Photos source: Google.

RAMBLINGS.

It sucks, you know. When everything is doing fine then, it all crashes again.
Everytime, every fucking time that I finally feels happy, there's always something or someone to fuck it all up.

I'm sick of all people who wants me to be like they want me to be. I'm not a fucking robot that you can control and I'm not your pinocchio and you're Gepetto. I mean, why is it so hard to just live my life, and honest to myself and loving someone and create peacefulness and push aside the hatred?

Lately, I've been searching what's actually the real meaning of life? And then I find this quotes, 
"You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing and dance, and write poems and suffer and understand, for all that is life." - Jiddu Khrisnamurti.
It hits the spot right away! So true. I'm slowly rebuild, relive myself right now. So much things going on in a very short period of time.

But then, I'm trying to meditate (still trying to do it every day) to finally can think more positive, erase the bad thoughts, the stress, the pressure. Happiness is a state of mind. I know my life will be filled with it, with peace of mind and with love.

Never give up, no matter what is going on.
Never give up, Develop the heart.
Too much energy in your country is spent developing the mind instead of the heart.
Develop the heart. Be compassionate.
Not just to your friends but to everyone, be compassionate.
Work for peace in your heart and in the world
Work for peace, and I say again,
Never give up.
No matter what is happening, no matter what is going on around you.
Never give up.

Yes, Dalai Lama. Yes. Thank you for the encouraging words :)

FIVE THINGS THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.

BEAUTIFUL SUNSET

(Gili Trawangan, Lombok)

SWIMMING AT SUNNY DAY

(Bumi Sangkuriang, Bandung)

ROAD TRIP

(Cipularang Highway)

STROLLING AROUND THE TOWN, AIMLESSLY

(Braga, Bandung)

GOOD BEER + GOOD SUSHI

HAZY DAYS.

Lately, I've been feeling so hazy for everything. Like I'm barely alive. Like every day filled with emptiness and nothingness. Like I'm just a ghost floating around. Like I'm living between dreams and reality.

The new year is coming, I just cannot wait. This is gonna be a new beginning for me. I'll do new things, I'll think new thoughts, I'll meet new people, I'll go to someplace that I've never been and really looking forward for a new job.

Something's gotta change.

Like Mark Twain said, "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

I'm thingking about those words a lot. That's like a wake up call. I need to do what I want to do. Like, fuck it with what other people think. This is my life. And I'm gonna living it to the fullest.
So, 2011, I got so much hopes on you.

HELLO AGAIN BLOGSPOT.

This is probably my 4th blog here in Blogspot. I deleted the last three blogs for many reason. I just really hope I won't delete this one again. I hope this blog would last long. I need place to write my thoughts, to give you vision how I see this world, to finally find myself again. Maybe this would work. Because lately words have been feeling so hard to express, from my mouth, my fingertips. So, hello again bloggers! This feels so exciting :D